motivation.

Had a great time today. got the motivation for a college student.

Hmmm.met dad's friend's daughter and she motivates me to work hard.

Everything dont comes easily but with hard work, i can.

I think i really had more activities than really studying hard!

i hope this time i will really put in my best effort.

if i spent my time like that always..

i need a change.

i need a change.

i need a change.

God help me.

now it isnt too late to start and get back on the track running again.

i want to start over again!Speak more.listen more.

join voices.speak out.study hard to make the best.be daring.

important things that i need to start on:cut down on activities.outings with frens.circle of frens.

study more everyday.exercise.rest well.walk with god important.

make a timetable.we all work alone.be independent.

I hope i will really work hard this sem and get good grades to glorify god's name.and dont let parents down.do it for the lord.unc says that law is the nearest subject to thealogy.

pray about it.pray to god, ask god for help.maybe im not good in anything even language that i needed the most.i ask god only for wisdom.thank you god.i will work hard for You. Live a life which gives glory to you and you alone. shine for the lord. get a degree and use that to serve the lord. god i write this to you. that i promise you god to work hard. coming to a university is to study.the main purpose is to study, nothing else. ok then.amen.

STILL

Many things happened, suddenly i was strike by someone God sent.
Living life normally, problems came, relationship with friends.
its normal isn't it? everyone has faced problems.
but it is to know that what is ur purpose in life?
isit about people? NO! ABSOLUTELY NO!
THIS WORLD IS ABOUT GOD! GOD! GOD ALONE!
HE IS THE CREATOR.

Many worldly things pull us further and further away from God.
We forget our purpose, we forget our vision, we even forget HIM!--> GOD himself.
How can we???
let's stop for just a while.to think about Him, our saviour, our redeemer, our father in heaven.
Let's stay still and find rest in Christ alone, we will see his mighty power in quietness and trust.
Even though there is thunder, storm, lightning, everywhere.
its dark outside, scary! but God's light will shine upon us!
He will be there always!
Let's just learn to trust him in everything we do.
People fail us, God remember God NEVER!
We only find contentment in Him alone, no one else can satisfy us.
Our hunger for the LORD!
We have to be STILL. wait for the Lord.
He will lead and guide us. never will he leave us.
he made everyone of us special in his own eyes, we shudnt blame others, judge others and look down on ourself.
I think i need to learn now is to let go.
Let God work in His way, not my own.
because i cannot do it own my own.
Let God WORK! in His wonderful way.
Dear God, have your way in me. Please help me.
I need you and holy spirit please remind me of God's love and existence.
because im weak and i always forget.
but i still thank god that you never leave me when i do so.
you always pull me back. you are always there! thank you father for your wonderful,great and awesome love for me! THANK YOU SOOO MUCH!!!!!!!!!
Please give me peace and wisdom to know what to do to help my friend.
He is facing problems. God i may not know what to do, but God you know.
God please help him dear lord, let him learn it himself thru u god.teach him lord..
i want to hand him in to ur loving hands! thank you for ur unfailing love!
GOD you an awesome GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you reign from heaven above with wisdom and power.
continue to lead me in my life to see the purpose that you have put in me.
i thank you lord with all my heart.
Jesus, guard my heart to overcome trials leaning on you alone.
guard my tongue too to say things that are pleasing to you.
forgive me for all my sins! thank you my dear abba father.
thank you for listenning.
God continue to strengthen me in my weaknesses.
help me to stand in thunder and storms with you lord.
Thank you, In Jesus most presious name i pray, AMEN.

i miss that smile.=)

I MISS HIM.
he doesnt look at me using those eyes anymore.
i know he doesnt cares.
i can only wait for god's plan.
he doesnt know anything.
i dont plan to tell him to.maybe next time.
maybe he has change.i seem to not know him anymore like those days.
the smile you smiled to me was no longer there.
i couldn seee that encouraging smile there anymore.
where isit? we are like total strangers.
i feel sad for that. i hope god will heal us.
okay.got stuff to do.bye.

six.

Im feeling bad.BAD BAD!!!!!
ishhhhh.ermm.i guess i tried my best for my friend.
but he dont respect me? i dont know.ewww.
ermm.im talking about another friend.
okay.back to it the original one.haha.
it is a lesson for me to learn, a tough one though.
im slowly letting go without him knowing.
ermmm.i know that he will live his life better and happier without me.
maybe a yes? or a no? i dont know. but hope for him the best, of course.
ok.it is good.God is working in some ways i cannot see.
trust in him.do not stumble on your decision.
trust god the almighty one.okie.bye..

five.

Wow.you know what? God gave me a gift! A really wonderful one.
He gave lessons thru the fellowship today i went.
Its about BGR. i learnt to wait for him with trust and faith.
Its the most important one. he will give u the best when u trust him.
So i really wana trust my god, even though it will tough.
i would be crying, sad and down.
but im not going to do that. even its tough, i would try my besst.
let go.move on.cheer up. he is my god! he lovess me.
GOD LOVES ME! i know that.
so i wana follow god's plan.wait for his timing for me to meet the right one.
Now focus on him and him alone.enjoy the time during (S).
be the real and true me and love the people around like how god loves me.
Do my best. i know i can do all things thru christ who strengthens me.
bye.

four.

Hmmm.God is slowly helping me out.
I wana get out of this!
I believe that He will. Shouting this: "I'M GONNA STEP OUT OF THIS!"
Yeahhh.feeling better after the shouting.
ermmm.trust in the lord, yeahh? It is a yes of course.
i think that he's too good for me.(he's gotta move on too)
Hope you will be fine, smile kaysss.smile more.i know you are awesome and will be great.
Move on..stop thinking.=]
hee.Done many things today!
I hearts my sissy.
im done here.

three.

I feel that i kinda like him, the way he is. but i cant tell him.:( because of some reasons.
hmmm.maybe i think im going to think a lot these days. i hope i dont. and i hope he wont find out anything. I dont know whether shud i tell him a not..shud i tell him?? how shud i say den?? ermmm.if i say i like him but den cannot be together.haix.its kinda sad right. maybe you're a nice guy. a person who helped me go thru exams with all your encouragement and support, a person who is nice all the time, who wants to help all the time, a person who like lovey dovey stuff in the back.(secretly) a person who like sportss., a person who cares for me.maybe you are almost the perfect guy for me. but there is only something lacking.you dont know the true god, our religion is different.hmmm.but shud i tell you? but isit wrong? or shud i wait for the right time to tell. but we cannot be together. I and feeling confused and blur now. maybe you hate me now, but just wana say that you are a guy who touches my heart.i still rmbed that you burned a cd for me, just for me when im sad.

but i dont know whether isit true love a not. haixx. shud i tell you? shud i tell you? i dont dare to tell you also. i dont whether what will happen the next thing. but i feel you are different, after that day. you seem different. i need time to heal me. i dont know whether in real life which one is the real you. isit that everything you wana participate one or u say ermm.im lazy that one.
i guess i dont really know you well. Even though i have lotsa feeelings for you, but den suddenly i made up my mind to follow God's decision. Although it is not very clear, but i WANT TO TRUST IN GOD! I KNOW HE WILL GIVE ME HIS BEST! if i wana follow god meanning i have to give up and trust in HIM. hmmm.i Should as god's children. i trust him i trust him trust him.
true love needs waiting.

I ahve to wait!!!!
yeshh! i know.i have to wait.
even though it will be painful.sad.heart-broken.
TRUST & HAVE FAITH IN THE LORD!
stay strong and not stumble when all temptations come.

Summary:
-God loves me
-Trust & have Faith in the lord
-Time heals, God heals
-Follow God is the best and the right choice
-dont worry, be happy
-move on, move on
-wait for the right time
Amen.